I have just completed what has been said to be the most difficult, stressful and important year of high school, yet I enjoyed every minute of it. I have made some incredible friends over the past year and had the opportunity to experience some amazing things as well. I am proud to say that I am just as gregarious as ever and I couldn't have asked for anything more!
That being said, I move into my next year of schooling with slight apprehension. Senior year. The year every high schooler looks forward to. While I have never been more excited about being a senior than I am now, I am also growing slightly melancholy about it. It will be a year of "lasts" for me. My last year at band camp, marching at JMU, at Governor's School, and being around some of my favorite people in the world. Even though I am extremely excited about being out on my own, making decisions, and living life to the fullest, something inside me wishes that I had stayed a child forever.
My parents are my biggest heroes and the most incredible people in the world to me. It scares me to know that after this year I won't get to see them every night, travel with the family, or talk to them as much as I used to. On the other hand, it's nice to know that I won't constantly have someone breathing down my neck, telling me to clean my room or wash the dishes.
I guess I really have no choice. Even though I may not want to move forward, life gives me no choice. I have to step confidently into the world and embrace this next year as it molds me and shapes me into the person that I will continue on into the world as. Instead of focusing on the list of "lasts", I have decided to focus on the memories that will be made. I want to carry the good times with me and leave the sadness behind, in the past, right were it needs to stay.
As I continue in life, nothing can stop me. I am as confident and happy as ever and I will continue to embrace that as I move forward into the next phase of my life. While this blog may seem like a rather sad blog to enter back into the world of blogging with, I believe it is a necessary step in helping me to move forward and embrace all of the changes in my life. I promise I will return again with a more upbeat post, but for now this is what I have. Thanks for putting up with my antics.
"...in the end, all that really matters isn't the things you did, but what its effects are today; not the knowledge you have learned, but how you applied it; not the words that were said, but how they made you feel; and most of all, not the moment of occurrence, but how it's now just a part of our memory... Every day we make memories... Let's paint lives with happy ones..." - Author Unknown
